so this is the new year
And I’m finally updating my blog.
Sir took all the time to make this blog for me. He wants me to start blogging, and has made it known that He’ll want me to update it more regularly. Eek.
Maybe I should back up a bit.
Who am I?
Delilah. I’m a college student who also happens to be in a BDSM relationship. I’m submissive to my Sir, and I couldn’t be more pleased with the whole thing. Sir is a smart, caring, safe Dominant. I’m proud to be His sub. Sir thinks that it would be a good idea for me to blog about being submissive. He’s insisted that I try to write it as if He won’t read it, to be completely honest in what I say. Still, it’s hard to do that.
I’m balancing exploring my BDSM desires and learning more about the scene while going to university. College is supposed to be a time of exploration. Sometimes I look at myself, whether it’s when I’m wearing a certain outfit, or when bruises are starting to appear on my skin, and I feel a little crazy, a little ridiculous. Most girls my age don’t do the things I do. Maybe it’s not fair to compare myself to other girls, but there you go.
Most women I meet in clubs are a lot older than I am. I wonder what girls my age would think if they knew this side of me. I’m moving into a new dormitory soon, and often worry what a roommate would think of me if she were to find out.
Some basics about me:
- I’m a 19 year old girl who just recently started exploring BDSM.
- I’m a communications major at a rather large East Coast university.
- I’m submissive with a subtle curiosity about my Dominant side.
- I often feel awkward on the scene, since most blogs I read or people I encounter are often older than I am, like my Sir.
- Sometimes I have issues balancing the college girl and the collared girl. Even though they’re both me. I get weirded out about it.
- I’m ridiculously fascinated by BDSM. Going to parties gets me very hyper and excited and smiley.
- Yes, I do feel like Alice in Wonderland sometimes. Like I’ve jumped down this crazy rabbit hole into a world I never knew existed before. But I like it.
I suppose once I get into a rhythm, it’ll be easier for me to crank out entries. For now, I’m just pleased that I’ve put something out there.
