so, uh, hi.
I haven’t blogged here for a variety of reasons.
a) Midterms. Enough said.
b) My internship at Obnoxious Public Relations Firm (disguised for obvious reasons) has suddenly dumped a lot of work on me at once. I work there three days a week.
c) The remote protocol I was under, fell apart.
Things with Sir and I went back and forth, throughout October. It was a very, very difficult month.
He’s been away on business more than He’s been here, which made it difficult to maintain protocol and feel connected.
So I pretty much dropped my protocol of emailing Him my food intake and tasklist for the day and doing slave tasks, for the latter half of October. They were causing me major anxiety and freaking me out, more than they were maintaining my ‘property’ mindspace.
These few weeks have not been the easiest. We struggle to find time to see each other, and we struggle with maintaining a connection. My stress levels have been running high, and so has Sir’s. The problem is, we both react to stress in different ways. I feel less submissive and pull away, and Sir feels MORE submissive.
We’ve had hard scenes dispersed throughout the month. We have hard scenes and then Sir leaves on business, for His job.
. . .I don’t know. I needed something here to break this silence that’s come over the blog.
On Sunday, we decided to change things.
He constructed a new remote protocol for me to follow, temporarily.
I swear I will blog more here in the next few days. I have Halloween, some more scenes and Folsom to talk about. And of course, my new protocol.
This feels weird. So, hi.
