By: lalana

lalana — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 02:23:27 +0000

So amazingly true – forget about the sex aspect of it for a second (if I can), the emotional honesty and openness alone is something that’s rarely achieved in a vanilla relationship (though I’m sure there’s exceptions). Always concerned about hurting, insulting, turning off the other person. Making sure to keep the parts they may not like covered by that mask… Eventually the mask starts to inhibit your breathing, and you start to suffocate.
Then throw the sex back into the equation – forget it. No way in hell would I be able to go back to missionary/vanilla sex after the experiences Master and I have had… to worrying what someone thought about my desires, my needs, my curiosities.
I couldn’t deal with burying my true self again under all those layers and masks now that I’ve discovered who I am.
thanks for getting me thinking
lalana

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