things i don’t want to say pt 2, and resolutions
Blah blah, New Year, blah blah, changes, blah.
I know every blogger out there is writing these wrap up posts, looking back at the year and looking forward to 2009.
I have no huge regrets for 2008. None. I have a few small ones, embarrassing moments that I could have gone without, poor decisions. On a whole, I’m amazingly pleased with how much I’ve developed as a person and as a submissive.
Despite how uncertain our relationship seems at the moment, I love Mark very much and I would not take back anything that we did. “Your love woke me up. It healed me.” He said, during one of our text messaging conversations. His love did the same for me, woke me up out of the three year sleep I was in.
We had an incredible year together; San Francisco trips, two BDSM gatherings (Folsom Fringe and TESfest), two contracts, dozens of scenes and thousands of hugs, kisses, and text messages between us.
I don’t know what the future holds, but I have a few resolutions.
- Have anal sex. My tiny Asian body tends to reject any sort of object going into my ass, silicone or otherwise. I have to be patient enough to let this happen.
- Cook more.
- RELAX! and manage my time better.
Below is the continuation and conclusion of my other post, Things I Don’t Want to Say, about a scene that Sir and I had when our contract ended.
